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( he frowns a little with that, leaning back on his palms. he pointedly doesn't look at jason. )

I don't want to punch you. ( if he's being honest, he doesn't want to punch his jason either -- at least, not anymore. he's found a substitute action that works for him. ) If he helped you, I can't imagine he hates you. This is all very unsneaky emotional, which isn't exactly our strong suit, but.

( he shrugs. )

I hoped you'd say "we were brothers", you and your Dick. So I could say, "I want to be brothers too", without it being too weird for you.

[He reaches for the security latch on his helmet to take it off. This kind of conversation is always more effective if they can see his face, and Jason will do anything for a reaction. He's as dramatic as they get.]

I wanted us to be brothers. [He can admit to that much, he told the Dick in his world already. He wanted them to be family, wanted them to be together as a team. They just have too much going on accept each other.]

But you have your own brother in here already, so what gives.

Things are complicated with Jason.

( he almost leaves it at that.

but he can't, because he's nothing if not a blabber mouth, sifting a hand through his hair while he turns to look at jason. he's never actually seen his face, which is odd -- he imagined it would just be jason's but he's... red haired, and unmarred. dick sucks in his breath. )

I'm -- trying. To fix things. I don't think he'll ever consider me his brother, though. ( he gives a shrug -- he might as well be transparent about it, feeling like jason can already read right through him. ) You don't have feelings for your Dick, right?

['Feelings', he says, and Jason is about to reply that he's already told Dick that he has brotherly feelings for his Dick wasn't he listening? And then. Well, then it hits him.]

What?

[Okay, so there's only a reason would be asking. And that's because the Jason he knows, Jason's Twin, might have feelings for him. Jason's feelings are his own personal mess to deal with and he's not going to think too hard on them, but what he does know is that Dick never suspected anything like that. To Dick Jason went from being the annoying little shit he adopted as a brother to the murdering jerk that returned from the death. So what the fuck did Twin do?]

Ok, just- I need a second.

[And yes, he gets his phone out.]

Aw, c'mon man. I thought we were having a moment.

( he isn't going to try and grab his phone, because he already knows jason would stop him, so he just lets it happen, even if it's the opposite of what he wants. he sighs, throwing his head in his hand. )

He kissed me.

( which isn't a lie it's just. another truth that he kissed him back. )

But that really doesn't have anything to do with any of this. I'm serious.

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[Jason lets out a 'mhmmm' because he honestly doesn't buy it. This conversation has already taken a pretty weird toll and he's honestly getting tired of picking up the breadcrumbs of Twin's sexual issues at this point. Is he going down a check list?

He does look back at Dick, though.]

No, I never kissed Dick. We were brothers.

Brothers is all I'm asking for.

( he didn't ask if they kissed though, he asked if he had feelings for him. don't think that he doesn't note the way jason entirely avoided the question -- but this is getting a little too personal, a little too in his face. he stands up, dusting off his palms. )

Alright well. This went places I wasn't expecting. Really, I just wanted to figure out where we stood, and try to set up a good foundation. Not sure I was entirely successful but. ( he cracks his neck. ) I'm not here to fight with you or Jason Jason. That's what I'm trying to say.

No, you're here to make out with him.

[He throws one of the fries at Dick's face.] You sit down right now and tell me more about this kiss. That's what a brother would do.

You can't already be using the brother thing against me.

( but yeah, okay, he sits back down after dodging a french fry attack, scuffing the heel of his boot against the brick side of the building. )

What do you want me to say?

I can and just did. [And it worked, too. So hah.]

I want you to be clear with me. What are your intentions towards my Twin? [He's taking this super seriously. But the moment he stops joking about this he has to start thinking, considering, weighting options and possibilities and he's just not ready for that. Let's process the kiss, first.] Are you sure you only have brotherly feelings? That doesn't sound like a brother to me.

My intentions? ( he laughs, exuberantly. ) You his father? Oh my god.

( cute he almost says at the end of it, but thinks better. his laughter dies down, and he rubs the back of his neck, pulling a face. )

It wasn't like it was a romantic kiss, it was in the middle of us fighting. I think he got mad because I was trying to talk about Bruce. ( a handwave. he is pointedly not mentioning the part where jason came all over his asshole and then he made jason give him a blowjob. ) It was my fault. I doubt it'll happen again, so yeah, no worries there, buddy.

[A bit of a handwave.]

I'm not worried. I know you wouldn't kiss me. [He stuffs a couple fries in his mouth because it's easier to focus on the food (on anything else) than the fact that somewhere, somehow, a Dick Grayson has kissed his Jason Todd. He's never actually been to this place but they make good ones, might go back there for the greasy fries. Ah, food.]

But I think you should be talking about this with Twin and not me. If it didn't mean anything to you you should tell him, so you're on the same page.

If you hurt him I'm not going to be this nice.

I didn't say it didn't mean anything. It just doesn't mean that. What you're thinking.

( lies don't really become him. besides, he wants to get off on the right foot with jason, and knows the way not to do that is through lying.

( withholding the entire truth is not lying. okay? he's just lucky his nightwing costume covers up the hickies on his neck) )

I told him to talk to me whenever he was ready, so, yeah. ( a twinge of seriousness. ) I wouldn't -- hurt him. Not like that. I'm not heartless.

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I know.

[Dick has flaws, of course he does. But 'not caring' and hurting people on purpose will never be one of them. He lashes out when he's angry, of course, but this cold-blooded kind of hurting wouldn't be a Grayson to do in the slightest.]

Why don't you tell me what does it mean to you, then?

( god does he not want to talk about this. arkham knight he'd mentioned on the subjects to talk about, but he certainly didn't mean like this -- on something he's been trying not to think about himself, for fear of what he might discover. not that he thinks he has feelings for jason but, jesus, you don't just have sex with someone and have it not mean anything, right. right? it meant something. he just doesn't want to think about it. )

I don't really see how it concerns you. ( he frowns, toying with a fry around his fingers. ) No pulling the brother card on me, this time.

[His mouth closes with a snap when he adds the last part. Fuck you, he was totally going to use it.]

Fine. [And he gulps down another fry, just because he can.] Look, I know he's not me. Logically, I know that. But it's still similar enough that I... care. A lot. And I want him to be safe and protected while he's here.

Are you going to be with me or against me on that?

With you.

( it's immediate.

but there's an exasperated, almost frustrated noise a second later, dick leaning back on his palms and looking up to the sky. )

I -- may have fibbed, earlier. May have. I don't hate him, I don't think so. ( another noise, more strangled. ) I should, though, for what he did to Barbara and Tim and the Commissioner and Gotham. But I don't think I do, so. I'll protect him, for as long as we're here. ( blue eyes single in on jason quickly, sharp and sure and maybe a little concerned. he probably shouldn't have said that. ) Keep that between us. We'll call it your first test of brotherhood.

[As pleased as he is with the answer, the last part actually makes Jason squint.]

I will. But you gotta at least tell me why.

I guess you'd probably know better than me, but how do you think he'd respond to having someone... I don't know care about him? He'd lash out.

( he doesn't actually know that, but he has an inkling towards it -- he and the arkham knight are not friends, and any feelings dick might have towards him, romantic or otherwise, would surely be laughed back in his face. right?)

I think the safest way to protect him is at a distance.

[Jason thinks about it. Considers it from all the possible angles. Finally, he nods with agreement. He can't be sure that Twin would react badly, but he's pretty sure he wouldn't react positively to something like that. This isn't the Dick Jason tried to reach to in Bludhaven, wearing his suit. This is the Dick right after he'd nearly killed Tim and Damian, when he didn't want to know anything about him.

And yet he's willing to help. He can respect that for Twin's sake.]

Deal.

But eventually you have to reach out to him.

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